I don’t even know where to begin. I am so emotional, and you’d think that it’s over something sad, but in any case, it is sad. I have had the worst two weeks ever (I don’t want to say my life. It’s still a long life). And it’s all because of an assignment.
About two months ago, we were given an assignment on the adoption of environmental management systems within small and medium-sized businesses in the Eastern and Western Cape. As interesting as the assignment topic sounds, the bummer in all of this was that, it was a group assignment. Nonetheless, I was looking forward to meeting new people and making new friends (it’s not the case right now!) and I was thinking to myself that this could be quite cool, but NO, it was HORRIBLE!
I won’t speak badly about the group members, but I won’t paint them as saints either. They made this the worst two weeks of my life. I was the group leader, so this meant that, it was extra effort on my part, which I didn’t mind, but no, it ended up being ‘MY’ assignment.
That whole expression that says: “There is no ‘I’ in TEAM? HA! What I have experienced is beyond words. I cried because of that assignment. I was supposed to have handed in yesterday, and had completed the assignment and everything, but, as I was about to leave the house to go print, the assignment was gone. I could not believe it. I hadn’t been sleeping because of that assignment, and now, all my handwork was gone. I don’t want to lie, I felt God leave my life at the moment. I couldn’t understand. He had seen how I struggled with that assignment, how it stressed me out, and helped me get through all of that, but still, how could HE allow such a thing to happen.
At some point, I felt like it was a lesson, and usually, I understand why He teaches me some of the lessons that He does, but what happened yesterday, I just wasn’t going to be understanding about it. There was nothing left to do, except start over, which is what I did. I had 3/4 of my original assignment left, which at least meant that i wouldn’t have to start over.
I did the assignment AGAIN. Heart broken and everything, I had to put my pride aside and get on with it. I worked on it during the night, but decide to get some sleep, because I hadn’t slept the night before because of the assignment.
To cut a long story short, I eventually finished the assignment, but as I was about to print, I realised that, the page with my sources, disappeared. Once again! But i wasn’t going to let that get me down. I persevered and handed in the assignment. I’m a little heart broken about the fact that I didn’t have a source page for the assignment because it means that, whatever I’ve written in that assignment, it can’t be substantiated.
I am just happy to have handed in. A part of me feels like cry ing though. But that’s something for another day. I’d love to go to me Economics class, but the way my body is screaming right now, I’m guessing, I should rather go home, switch off my phone and sleep, because in any case, I’m going to have to work through the long weekend to catch up for all the lectures that I’ve missed and some of the practical work that I need to get done.
Other than that, let me be gone.
Loving you always,