God has been so good to me, and you know as human beings, sometimes we don’t seem to understand, or truly appreciate just how much God loves us.
It’s been a hectic period for me. I don’t think I’ve mentioned it before (or at least I don’t remember mentioning it), but I had a mild stroke about a month ago, and the doctor said that it had happened due to the high levels of stress that I was under, and that I should try to relax more, which is completely impossible when you have deadlines to attend to, not to mention the amount of studying involved.
This was an awfully terrible time for me, because, on the day of the stroke, I was supposed to have written two tests on that day, but i couldn’t because I was feeling funny. And I had prayed so hard to God at that moment, that you know what, if my life is ending right now, let mine know that I loved him. Let my heart know that he was the awesome little human being I’ve even been so blessed to meet, but that wasn’t the case. I was dying yet, but at the same time, I wasn’t going to make it to those two tests.
I had to make peace with that. It broke my heart because, I was sort of looking forward to writing those tests and couldn’t understand what was suddenly happening. Deep down I knew that I wasn’t ready, but that too, I had made peace with. As I reflect on all that’s happened, I must say, I’ve been blessed. And I’ll always say this, I love my parents with every inch of my being, I love them to the moon and back. I love them past heaven, I love them from the core of my soul.
Those two human beings have been the greatest gift to me. They have been a blessing that I cannot describe in words. The things they do for me, the sacrifices that they make to ensure that I have everything I need, I must say, my mere thank you isn’t enough. I feel the need to make them proud all the time. Everyday.
I’ve reached a point in my life where the scales have finally fallen off my eyes. I’ve reached a point where I understand the nature of some of the decisions that I make, up to a point that, I think before I do now. Yes, we’re supposed to be young and free, and live life with no limits, because as we know, there’s nothing worse than living with regret. However, do we ever stop to think how those very same ‘live now, live without limits” affect our lives? The difference that those moments make in the long run, despite being ‘happy moments”? From personal experience, I won’t lie. I don’t stop and think about the impact that some of these ‘happy moments’ have on my life.
But not to move away from the topic of my parents being super human beings.
It’s graduation week, and a very special person tome is graduating today, and I can’t help but feel overjoyed by this. I am so proud of him, it feels like I’m the one graduating, and not him. I must say, I’m so inspired by how he perseveres, how he motivates and encourages me to keep pushing. He’s always willing to help me with some of my school work, especially with Accounting (and I love him for that!), and I must say, it’s amazing how people come into your life for a uknown purpose, and then become the epitome of what I call “nougat moments”. God has just been blessing me with so many wonderful people in life, and I am truly thankful.
Everything is slowly but surely getting back on track, and I’m loving this whole journey of self-discovery. It’s ok to have off-days. You can’t be on a high all the time, and that’s one thing that I’ve been struggling with. I’ve also realized that I can refuse to do something for someone nowadays (not in a bad way). There’s no point compromising yourself, yet you know that at the end of the day things are going to backfire on your side, so the best thing to do, is to not compromise yourself at all.
But I just thought I should do a little update on what’s been happening in life thus far. I’d love to put a huge ink-stain of everything that’s happening in my life at the moment, but Accounting is calling.