Inspiration. Blessed miracles. #Graduation

God has been so good to me, and you know as human beings, sometimes we don’t seem to understand, or truly appreciate just how much God loves us.

It’s been a hectic period for me. I don’t think I’ve mentioned it before (or at least I don’t remember mentioning it), but I had a mild stroke about a month ago, and the doctor said that it had happened due to the high levels of stress that  I was under, and that I should try to relax more, which is completely impossible when you have deadlines to attend to, not to mention the amount of studying involved.

This was an awfully terrible time for me, because, on the day of the stroke, I was supposed to have written two tests on that day, but i couldn’t because I was feeling funny. And I had prayed so hard to God at that moment, that you know what, if my life is ending right now, let mine know that I loved him. Let my heart know that he was the awesome little human being I’ve even been so blessed to meet, but that wasn’t the case. I was dying yet, but at the same time, I wasn’t going to make it to those two tests.

I had to make peace with that. It broke my heart because, I was sort of looking forward to writing those tests and couldn’t understand what was suddenly happening. Deep down I knew that I wasn’t ready, but that too, I had made peace with. As I reflect on all that’s happened, I must say, I’ve been blessed. And I’ll always say this, I love my parents with every inch of my being, I love them to the moon and back. I love them past heaven, I love them from the core of my soul.

Those two human beings have been the greatest gift to me. They have been a blessing that I cannot describe in words. The things they do for me, the sacrifices that they make to ensure that I have everything I need, I must say, my mere thank you isn’t enough. I feel the need to make them proud all the time. Everyday.

I’ve reached a point in my life where the scales have finally fallen off my eyes. I’ve reached a point where I understand the nature of some of the decisions that I make, up to a point that, I think before I do now. Yes, we’re supposed to be young and free, and live life with no limits, because as we know, there’s nothing worse than living with regret. However, do we ever stop to think how those very same ‘live now, live without limits” affect our lives? The difference that those moments make in the long run, despite being ‘happy moments”? From personal experience, I won’t lie. I don’t stop and think about the impact that some of these ‘happy moments’ have on my life.

But not to move away from the topic of my parents being super human beings.

It’s graduation week, and a very special person tome is graduating today, and I can’t help but feel overjoyed by this. I am so proud of him, it feels like I’m the one graduating, and not him. I must say, I’m so inspired by how he perseveres, how he motivates and encourages me to keep pushing. He’s always willing to help me with some of my school work, especially with Accounting (and I love him for that!), and I must say, it’s amazing how people come into your life for a uknown purpose, and then become the epitome of what I call “nougat moments”. God has just been blessing me with so many wonderful people in life, and I am truly thankful.

Awesomest human being (aafter my parents) in the world! He just graduated!

Awesomest human being (aafter my parents) in the world! He just graduated!

Everything is slowly but surely getting back on track, and I’m loving this whole journey of self-discovery. It’s ok to have off-days. You can’t be on a high all the time, and that’s one thing that I’ve been struggling with. I’ve also realized that I can refuse to do something for someone nowadays (not in a bad way). There’s no point compromising yourself, yet you know that at the end of the day things are going to backfire on your side, so the best thing to do, is to not compromise yourself at all.

But I just thought I should do a little update on what’s been happening in life thus far. I’d love to put a huge ink-stain of everything that’s happening in my life at the moment, but Accounting is calling.

Love

S*

 

 

I want my life back. “Take it back”#21 Birthday :)

Let me start of by saying that, I have amazing friends, an awesome family, and a God that loves me (and He’s been saving my behind, especially with something that I don’t want to mention *embarrasedFace*).

I have had the most amazing 21st birthday ever. My birthday was on the 22 March 2014, on a Saturday, and in South Africa, we celebrate Human Rights day on the 21st, which was on a Friday, therefore, should a public holiday (Human Rights day) fall on a Friday, it’s going to be a long weekend. There was no school on Friday, which made it a super awesome birthday, because I wouldn’t have to wake up early the following day for school.

Anywhow, this is how everything played out.

I met someone awesome from Malawi. He’s an Architecture student, and his name is Chiposi “Felli” Sinalo. This very awesome person took me out to the movies on Friday (pre-birthday vibes). We watched 300- Rise of the Empire. The movie was not the type that I would watch, because it was very violent and there was too much blood, but I laughed so much at the number of times I cringed at the sight of seeing how this other evil, but absolutely goregous woman would slay someone’s head off.

After the movie, we went to one of my favourite places, called the Magic World, which is a gaming arcade. We played a few games there, and contemplated between playing putt-putt golf or going go-carting, but in the end, we didn’t do neither.

We walked around a bit, looking for gifts and other small things, and in the end, we went to Wakaberry, which is FroYo shop in Port Elizabeth. After getting some frozen yogurt, we went to the beach. We got to the beach and chilled on one of the benches, talking, and watching the waves hit the rocks. It was pure bliss. The weather was absolutely to die for. There was a beautiful contrast of gold sun rays and a dash of blue sky as the sun was setting, and a gentle breeze, with that inkling of sea salt in it.

It was the perfect day. We took lots of pictures (which I will post (^^,). After playing in the water for a bit, we went to Spur Steak Ranches for supper, which was an awesome ending to a beautiful day. The setting at the restuarant was so mellow, and there was an atmosphere of laughter, a melancholy atmosphere among friends, who haven’t seen each other in a while, and have finally gotten the chance to catch up over a great meal.

We talked over a cup of tea and had great food too. To end of the evening, we walked home, and got to my apartment, chilled on the sofa, and at 23:59, he did a countdown, and was the very first person to wish me a happy birthday.

Could a girl ask for more?! I dont think soo!

He left after some dancing in my tiny living room.

For my actual birthday (some of my friends forgot!), my parents called and did a duet over the phone, which made me miss home, because I would be getting cake at home and would get to be with my favourite little people in the whole wide world. I miss my family so much, and I thank God every day for  such amazing people. I have the greatest family ever, and they’re so suportive. I had tons of messages from friends, but the one that broke my heart the most, was the message from my oldest brother. I almost broke into tears… (long story :(

It was a chilled, laid back day, filled with movies, laughter, tea and giant red velvet cupcakes. I think it’s safe to say that, I gained atleast 5kg’s from all the food that I ate this weekend. My friends cooked and sang for me , and even got me a red velvet cupcake with a match stick impersonating as a candle. I loved it.

It was the best birthday ever.

Life is amazing. And Love is even better.

The awesome human being, brother and friend :)

Felli and Mphatso (Me)

Felli and Mphatso (Me)

hahahaha! I love life

hahahaha! I love life

We weren't sure whether the camera was taking pictures not! #21

We weren’t sure whether the camera was taking pictures not! #21

 

You gotta love me :) #21

You gotta love me :) #21

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’d like to finish of by saying this :

HAve an awesome week

Have an awesome week

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I love you all

P.S. I’ve been bloated for  4 days. I’m starting to think that it might not be that at all. LOL. Help me solve the mystery.

S*

Life is one thing, but Love is something else…MyCuppaTea

Hi Everyone,

 

It’s been a young minute since my last visit, and it can be said that, there’s a lot for me to share.

I’m not sure where to begin, but I guess, I’ll have to start somewhere.

After months of CuppaTea and I not talking, and walking past each other on campus, I decided to say hi today. It wasn’t voluntary. It just happened.

The last time him and I spoke, was on the 12 October 2013, and we didn’t part on good terms, and it was actually one of the things that was actually making me nervous about coming back to school, because, honestly speaking, I also played my part in the drift between us. I didnt expect things to be that awkward between us, once we came back to school, but it happened.

I’ve been back at uni for almost two months now, and in that two months, we haven’t said anything to each other. He would walk past me and I’d do the same, but today, I saw  him at the library, and, seeing that we were walking in the same direction, I decided to say something.

It felt amazing. A huge weight lifted off my shoulders when I said hi to him today. I wasn’t even thinking about the fact that, he might not respond or anything like that. But yes, things between us will never be the same ever again, and I guess, its finally time to move on properly.

 

I’d love to stay and chat some more, but I need to hury home for something.

 

Loving you always,

S

At Some Point…

I knew that at some point, I’d have to come back and tell you all, what’s been happening recently in my young life, and this is what I have to say.

Changing courses was the best decision that i could have possibly made for myself, because, I am finally happy, and have been enjoying every minute of it. The accounting part of things, has also been a nice challenge, because, I get to take a break from studying heavy volumes of material and, still feeling like I’m drowning in the end.

I feel like I’ve come alive, and that I have found something that makes me happy. Over the last week, I’ve learnt to approach everything in a positive attitude, and to smile, no matter how bad my day is going, and more importantly, to pray. I’ve learnt to pray.

I’ve even started writing letters to God (which was an idea that I gotten from one of my roommates). It’s been a tremendously exciting time, so much so that. I get home super tired, hungry and not wanting to do anything else, except sleep or do accounting.

I must say though, life on the other side, isn’t as green as I’d like it to be. It gets a little lonely because, most people are busy with law modules and there you are, with a lot of free time on your hands that you don’t really know wat to do, and then, theres’ the avoiding people on campus business! (VERY FUNNY I TELL YOU!)

Things went from awesome to freaking pathetic between CuppaTea and I. We don’t even greet each other anymore, and that’s something I ill never get to understand, but anyway, I guess it’s another chapter that I’ll just have to close, because as you know, these days I deal with the: ” If things aren’t adding up, then start subtracting.”

And to be honest, compromising yourself, in order to make other individuals happy in life, is by far the worst decision you could ever make, especially if those individuals  have girlfriends that they never bothered to tell you about.

But like I continue to say, life goes on. Let us not be sad  of what has ended, but should be happy of the experiences that you shared with those people in our lives.

Other than that, I’m excited. I’ll tell you why, the next time.

 

Loving you always,

 

S**

WHYYYYYYY MEEEE!

My Blackberry has a tendency of letting me down when I least expect it. I depend on that phone to simplify my life. From appointments, to dates, meetings, e-mails, in fact, to cut a long story short, I depend on it for a lot of things and I couldn’t understand why it would want to do such a thing to me at this point in time of my young ‘almost’ 21 years of life!

It did the same thing as last time, went white then showed me a JVM Error 102! I wanted to shed so many tears, you wont believe! The last time I checked, I was listening to music, next thing, the thing went white. I felt like I’d been kicked in the gut, because, the last time something like this happened, I went two months without a phone.

Anyway, there’s no point in crying over spilt milk at this point in time. I’m just worried that, my boss wont be able to contact me, and my landlord wont be able to contact me either, should any of them need to talk to me.

I’m so stressed out. I have so much to do and so little time to do it in. I still have to think about packing, wrapping things up with work, go shopping for additional stuff that I’m going to need when I’m back at school. There’s just so much to do. At least the car isn’t a problem. I’ve already found that one (WINKS!)

Anyway, I have to be at work at 7am tomorrow morning, meaning that I’ll have to leave the house at 6am, so that I can beat traffic. But yes, I’ll have to prepare tonight for tomorrow morning, including making lunch.

In other news, Zoey still hasn’t spoken to me, and I’m not even going to bother talking to her, because, to be honest, I’ve always been nice to her, and always tried my best to make sure that she’s update to date with what’s happening at school, and she’s mad at me for not coming to a party after she’d specifically told me that she wasn’t going to do it?! I don’t think so.

And besides, once you tell me that you wont be doing something, I make other plans (although it wasn’t up to me at all this time around).But anyway, I’d hate losing her as a friend, but no man, I’m exhausted, and a little annoyed by her behavior. I have a life outside of school.

Other than that, so much has been happening. My sister is embarking on another journey in life, and she doesn’t live at home anymore. She comes back sometimes, but now, she’s a permanent resident at the farm.

I can’t even remember the last time I went shopping. I walked in to Edgars Stores yesterday, and good God, I saw the most gorgeous bags ever. I especially love these other two, but the one that I love more between the two bags, has to be the brown barrel bag. I would have loved to post a picture, but they didn’t have it on-line.

There’s so much I’m going to be doing, when I get back to Port Elizabeth, including going to the beach, until the end of summer, and also visiting a store called Cottton On. I was browsing their website, and have a couple of things that I want to get there. I’m so stoked though.

So much shopping to do! I can’t wait.

I’d love to stay and chat, but I’m a little stressed out about this Blackberry business.

I miss my slender person.

Anyway,

Loving you always,

S*

Crazy-Normal!

I know that I’ve been a bit scarce and all I can say is that, I have good reason to be. I got a job. A paying might I add. It’s been such a lot of fun, such a lot of work, so exhausting but totally worth it.

I’ve met so many new people in a short space of time and everyday, it gets interesting everyday. I’ll do a tell all tomorrow. My feet, wrists and eyes, in fact the entire body is exhausted, so we’ll talk some more tomorrow.

 

Loving you always,

 

S*

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